
I guess it is because we are into a new year that I have been remembering past times a lot lately. Some of those milestones this coming year are:
- Being married 40 years this coming August
- Living overseas for close to 30 years
-Being with CBF 3 years longer than we served with FMB
- Both of my children being in their "thirty-somethings" now
- Having four grandchildren that won't stay little much longer
Then my sister, Sharon, wrote (in a thank you for remembering their anniversary) that it was kind of bittersweet to be married that long. You are thankful for all the years past, but
on the other hand -- ALL those years are past!!
That is so true. But she and I, too, are grateful for all those years, and neither of us would ever consider letting the number of past years that have gone by keep us from living the present to the fullest.
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I cannot let the past paralyze me. Afterall, those definitely were not WASTED years.
Remembering is valuable, too. It gives a foundation to the future and helps me remember from "whince" I came. I have learned some beneficial lessons in the process, too.
(at least I hope that I have)
But there comes a point where I need to accept things that cannot be changed and move forward. For example:
When we first came to Macedonia, some things seemed so backward to me (not "backward" in the sense of inferior or wrong, but just a change from the "known"). Things seemed reversed.
The Macedonian alphabet gave me problems:
The letter "P" is "R"
The letter "S" is "C"
The letter "N" is "H"
The letter "V" is "B"
(I could go on --- but you get the idea)
The letter "N" is "H"
The letter "V" is "B"
(I could go on --- but you get the idea)
Another example is that in Macedonia we celebrate New Year's before Christmas
(January 7). It is not necessarily wrong -- just different from what I have always known.
So my point is that there are some things that just aren't going to change - like the Macedonian alphabet and the date of Christmas here, so I need to accept them and move forward.
There are things, situations, circumstances that NEED to change though.
We need to confront the mistrust, bigotry, hatred, selfishness, greed,
oppression, poverty, despair, and inhumanity that we see all around us - and to the ends of the earth.
And we need to replace it with love, humility, compassion and hope that we have within us to give. We need to be "light" - as Arville said in his Christmas Message - where we are.
So whether I celebrate Christmas before or after the New Year is not the important thing, but that I celebrate the "light" within me does matter.
It makes all the difference!
Shelia
































































