From near the castle tower, Arville wrote:
Some time ago, last fall to be precise, I found a place of solitude on the "Castle Hill" in Skopje. Here is how it all came about:

October 2008:
I am beginning a new practice. It is experimental to be sure, because I am not at all sure what the results will be. However, with a compelling sense of “oughtness”, I feel as though I would be remiss if I were not to respond to this kindling of the Spirit.
This experience could be compared, at least in my mind, to that of Phillip (Acts 8:26) when the only instruction he had from the angel was to “Go south to the desert road that leads out of Jerusalem toward Gaza”. Surely, Phillip must have been engulfed simultaneously with anticipation and anxiety, as am I.
My calling, however, is not to a desert road, but to a hilltop in the center of Skopje. From that vantage point, the site of an ancient castle, the whole city is in view. That is where I am being led to await further instruction.

Perhaps, it would seem appropriate to be there on that hilltop early in the morning when things are still and quiet, or at dusk, in that interval between the rush of the day and the unwinding of the evening. But, for some reason, my impulse is to be there at midday, in the middle of all the noise, clamor, and “busy-ness” of daily life in the city.
Will there be a chariot waiting? If so, what will it look like and who will be inside? If I could have precise answers to these questions, maybe I could be better prepared. Nevertheless, I will go with my eyes, my heart, and my hands open to this opportunity of discovery and sensitivity to the voice of God.
Call it praying. Call it listening. Call it a learning experience or all three. Does this have any connection to the reconciliation conference from which I recently returned? At the moment, I have no clear vision, no clear definition or description; only a gentle urging from the Holy Spirit to take this step and see what happens next. I think I will go on Tuesday.

March 2009
What is sustainability?
To live a sustainable life is to care about the generations we will never know and to embrace the future for them.
-By planting a tree, even though we may never enjoy the shade it may someday provide.
-By treasuring our air, water, soil and biological communities and preserving them for
generations to come.
-By being a part of something far, far greater, Bernheim Forest explores sustainable ideas.
After reading those words, I, of course, began to think in terms of what appropriate applications could be made to our particular ministry setting. Now, back in Macedonia, I am face-to-face again with the reality that exploring sustainable ideas is not a high priority for people here whose primary concern is getting through to the end of this month.
From the vantage point of the castle hill in Skopje, I see the mix and flow of people engaged in the process of living. It occurs to me that perhaps “being the presence of Christ” is helping people to understand that they are a part of something “far, far greater,” and helping to bring them into what Desmond Tutu describes as, “a God awareness.”
It is this “God-awareness” that redirects our priorities and awakens us to the calling to become God’s partners in this world’s transfiguration. God loves and cares for each one of us and all of us, which includes the generations yet to come.
So from now on, when I talk to people about preserving natural resources and planting trees (which we are doing as a joint project with a Macedonian church here) these conversations will have a whole new meaning.
May 2009
I had found this place where I could go for a few minutes of thoughtful reflection and for a bit of quiet tranquility. That place was the “castle hill”, overlooking and surrounded by the city of Skopje. Inside the castle walls was a well-kept combination of lawn, flowerbeds, and a spontaneous scattering of trees. Attention was given to maintaining the natural beauty of the site. Shelia had been to make some lovely photos of the place back in the fall last year. This locale had become a sanctuary for me.
But all that has changed now – in a matter of a few weeks. This special place is hardly recognizable anymore, and it is very far removed from the place of tranquility that I knew not so long ago.

Rumor has it that buried beneath the centuries-old layer of silt and sediment is a beautifully preserved Byzantine cathedral, adorned with many rich furnishings from the era. Therefore, to verify the existence of the cathedral or to dispel the rumor, whichever the case may be, these massive excavations have consumed huge amounts of time, energy, and financial resources.

My place of serenity has been ravaged. The natural beauty has been replaced by earth-moving equipment. The sound of the gentle breeze and rustling leaves has been overpowered by the noise and clatter of this invasive machinery. As yet, nothing of significance has been found, but the excavations continue. How deep they will dig is anyone’s guess.
Recalling that scene of devastation, I find myself dealing with feelings of interruption and displacement. I need a place for occasional retreat and refuge, but where will it be found?
As I deal with my grief and make plans for a new journey of discovery, it has occurred to me that sanctuary and tranquility are not necessarily determined by geographical limits. Perhaps this “place” is not confined to one particular setting, but rather multiple settings. Where is the place that I can experience God’s presence, and in turn, live out the reality of God’s Presence.
I am reminded now of that passage in Philippians 4:9, “Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me – put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” Now, here I am, praying another dangerous prayer, “Lord, show me where your Spirit is.” The probability is that the Spirit of God will show up in quite, unexpected places.
Arville